the week before Christmas

Christmas Eve is a special tradition in my house – we have a “Scandinavian” meal in honor of my mom’s mom’s family. Today, I think a lot about my family, our traditions, what the end of the year means… To honor those who’ve gone before, I’d like to feature one of my great-grandmother’s poems (once again –Where Children Live 1958). She wrote a lot about the holiday (including some greeting cards), and I think it’s nice to spotlight her today. This is one most can relate to – and if you’re feeling like this now, good luck! And Merry Christmas!

The Week Before Christmas

Christmas comes but once a year …
If you ask me, that’s enough!
One week more in which to shop
And is the going rough …
One week more in which to bake,
To wash and iron and clean …
To make out lists I promptly lose,
On which I’ve learned to lean.
Christmas cards still to address,
Packages to send …
Through a long post-office line
My weary way I’ll wend.
Telephone orders to exchange,
This one is worth a laugh …
Size sixteen shirts? My husband wears
A fourteen and a half.
A napkin ring engraved this week?
The clerk seems sort of hazy
And looks at me as if to say,
“Lady! Are you crazy?”
Mentally I’m checking lists …
Order mistletoe,
Bayberry candles, icicles,
And artificial snow.
Check the light bulbs for the tree
And don’t forget the tree …
Are there ornaments enough?
Oh dear, I’d better see.
Order turkey, cranberries,
And mixed nuts from the store …
Have I forgotten something?
The wreath for the front door!
One week more for all the tasks
I’ve set myself to do …
One week of rushing here and there,
But happy through and through.

Christmas 1945

Merry Christmas to those who celebrate it — this poem is from my great-grandmother Alice B. Johnson (from her book Where Children Live (1958))

This is the day, the Christmas day,
The world has waited for —
This is the dream men dreamed of home
For four long years and more.

This is the dream that brought them through
Bastogne and Bougainville —
Through jungle heat and frozen waste,
Beyond each numbered hill.

Hang up the holly, mistletoe,
And light the Christmas tree,
And dream tonight of Bethlehem —
Think not of Calvary.

Think not of crosses in a row
Or comrades resting there —
They sleep above the stars tonight,
Safe in a Father’s care.

harbor tunnel at 3:31am before Christmas

like eggshells
how they crack apart
except in here
over and over
like a blink, the white light walls
split into a slide show:

remember, lil sis,
using egg whites
to glaze the raw
sugar cookie Christmas dough…

blink.

remember our lil hands
tearing bread to top
“the egg dish” that
delicious Christmas morning food…

blink
the white light walls
frame a white utility van
at the tunnel’s end,
its tailights steady — oh
i think i’m moving
but it never gets any closer.

country song 3- jack (in e major)

i see it when his eyes change shape
across smoke swung lingering in bars the same
across hands cold holding sweating drinks
through endless meetings with simple names

burdens of the stonewall sleeping dead
ones who tease tickling dreaming eyes
those stupid faces and stupid chances while
far away from him and her, sometimes i

deal a hand of solitaire
he loves me most when he leaves me there

i see it when his eyes change shape
across smoke swung lingering in bars the same
me, i’ll find a line of whiskey shots
then burn a memory of his fragile face

tomorrow if he wakes in time to see
i’m lacing up my running shoes
pack a sack with Jack Kerouac
find again him nothing good to lose

he says baby it’ll be like before
he says baby just make your way back through the door…

deal a hand of solitaire
you know he loves me most when he leaves me there

i’m through these tongue tastes of empty air
can’t have a memory of what was never there.