like meeting a Grizzly
on a river bank in Alaska —
inevitable
that he will
out run
out swim
out climb
you
but has he decided?
has he felt a similar fear?
Sending poetry to the world
like meeting a Grizzly
on a river bank in Alaska —
inevitable
that he will
out run
out swim
out climb
you
but has he decided?
has he felt a similar fear?
like the slow
melt of muscles into bed
first shivering
then slowly
toes on up
warming, letting go
soft leather, pillows
reach, wrap, magically take me
as their own – day ends.
What causes us to
Rush?
Whole lives spent harried, hurried,
I too have always felt
Rushed
To get to this point yet
I’m not old enough yet
To understand why
Look at the cars in traffic
Snaking their way to and from
In a steady stream
Rushing, rushing
Unaware of this view.
long graceful fingers
naked
and growing like ivy
up pale cheekbones
leaving only the eyes
intent
do you ever
look in the mirror
and feel that fear –
climbing vine of panic
choking
which hands are real?
the longer you stare
the more those leaves of
nerves pressing
belong to someone else
the more those eyes
grow sparkling in wicked
suspicion.
repetition has a certain pathetic
ring
and an affinity
for short panicked breaths
tightening chest
then a
fistful of hair pulled
desperate.
if i told you
all these things
i was lying
if i told you
i was affected
lying too.
repetition that
two-faced vilian.
practice makes perfect
and this…
this…
a tick burrowing in.
dull grey
house mouse
type of
heart
afraid of shadows
and every
spark.
oh heart
why don’t
you know,
not every cheese
a trap
not every look
a rat.
i’m watching a man
watching a squirrel but who
is watching me now?
the lack of ______
the quiet ache of missing
the empty white space
these are just as important
as the have, the hold
the in the flesh.
author’s note… it seems fitting that i find this poem to be completely unfinished.
silent as a winter night
we
smolder into ash and dust
where we used to sit beneath maples
lips on neck
the pressure of a pulse extinguished